June 2, 2010
Dear Ones,
This is a very personal message from me to you, which I truly hope you’ll take the time to read. It has turned out to be a bit long. I hope you’ll print it out and read it over a cup of coffee or tea.
It seems that I’ve written this type of letter to you several times in the past year and a half. The kind of letter that goes something like… “Sorry I’ve been absent for a while, this is what’s been happening, and… I’m back!” Well, for someone like me who has identified a bit with herself on being the “pillar of strength” and the “dependable one,” this recurring phenomenon has been a bit frustrating to say the least.
And yet… now that I’ve been on this path where my only choice has been to SURRENDER, ACCEPT, and ADAPT long enough to see a bigger picture emerging, I’m here today to tell you that I have a message for you. And that message is coming to you through the experience of my life.
Before I get into the message, I’d like to give you some background so that the message makes sense.
Anyone who has read my book or done any work through Success for the Soul knows that I’ve prided myself on not only being able to make my own dreams come true – big giant life dreams – but that I’m pretty darn good at helping others make their dreams come true. And the truth is that none of that has changed. Since 2002 my soul-mate husband and I manifested an amazing life in wine-country Oregon, we had two beautiful children after struggling with infertility, and I’d written and published my dream book, which became a best-seller … to name a few. SIMULTANEOUSLY, life was presenting me with tremendous personal challenges: In 2005 my mother had been diagnosed with lung cancer and I became her primary caregiver for four years until she passed in May of 2009. As I looked forward to healing and reclaiming my life, extenuating circumstances triggered a series of “earthquakes” that affected our sense of security and safety regarding our home life (which, among other things included the joys of a legal dispute), and most recently, in the wee hours of Easter Sunday morning, I discovered that my marriage was ending, in a most shocking, unexpected and painful way (by divorce not death).
At a time when my life’s work was taking off like a rocket, as Source Energy was supporting me in reaching an international audience, as new and improved coaching programs were coming on line… my personal world was turned upside down.
As all spiritual beings living a human experience I had to give myself the space to process the shock and pain. I was living a paradox… part of me wanted the space and permission to make it all about ME…to curl up into a fetal position, hide under the blankets and disappear for a few months. While the grown-up part of me knew I had to be strong for my children. I had clients who had entrusted their hopes and dreams with me. I had financial responsibilities to honor. I simply didn’t have the luxury “go away.”
So, what did I do? I did what I’ve been doing, what I’ve been teaching, and what I’ve been practicing for all these years.
I turned to Source. I turned to God. But I did in a way and to a depth I’ve never gone before. I turned it ALL over, really and truly ALL to God. Every day. Every minute. Every care. Every question. Every decision. Every concern. I turned over my need to know. My addiction to reasoning. My love of control. My desire for order. I turned over my fears. My worry about the children. I turned over my business. My clients. My finances. I turned over difficult conversations I needed to have. It turned over my physical health and well-being.
I THOUGHT I had let God live my life for me and through me before. But like this? Never.
With all of my God time, some things became clear very quickly. Firstly, I KNEW WHY this was happening…
I HAD ASKED FOR IT.
You’re thinking to yourself WHAT?! How could you have possibly asked for this? Well, this sort of thing happens ALL the time. We set goals and intentions. We ask the Universe for change. But when things DO change, we forget we asked for it! Not only that, but we don’t like HOW the change is unfolding. We ask God for help, but try to tell God how to do her job. (And don’t even THINK about trusting God!)
As for me what happened is that back in 2009 I had declared to the Universe, “I want to KNOW that God is my Source. My ONLY. My EVERY. My ALL! I want to get it at a cellular level, so that I no longer have to try to convince myself of this. I want to move BEYOND intellectual understanding to deep, spiritual KNOWING.”
So, what happened? I manifested the exact experiences I needed to have no choice, but to turn to God for everything. Every external structure in my life that I used to count on to feel safe and secure was stripped away. With my mother’s illness, my freedom (my ability to live life on my terms) was confiscated. When my home life crumbled into a chaotic mess of conflict, threat, and abandonment… the illusion that safety and security come through external comforts vanished. And when my marriage ended, my “religion of relationship,” and my earthly identity burned away to ashes.
As a result, I was left with nothing but my relationship with and trust in God. I knew I could be strong and loving for my children, because there is just something super-human that gets activated when a woman becomes a mother. But I had no idea how I could possibly be present and helpful to my clients, let alone get through each day. And yet, I had to. So, before each client session, before each class, and before each Q&A session, I’d turn everything over to God. I would say, “Okay God. The life-coach formerly known as Sonia is no longer here. Work through me so that I may serve this person in the highest way.”
I did this for EVERY single professional interaction and exchange, and what happened was quite astounding. Not only would amazing wisdom come through and my clients felt served, but I felt better. Letting God work through me, FOR another, uplifted me. Of course I always knew about this phenomenon. But to experience it when it took everything I had just to answer the telephone… this was a whole new level.
…And then… the feedback started coming in.
“Sonia, I don’t know what’s happened to you, but something is different. I’ve never heard or felt you be so powerful.”
“Sonia, I got off the phone the other day crying, and I knew that I had to have you as my coach for the rest of my life.”
And then… I started letting my clients know what had happened in my life and the feedback continued.
“Sonia, I have no idea how, but what you’re bringing is more inspiring, confident and clearer than I’ve ever heard you.”
My response was always the same: I’m letting God work through me, because there is nothing of “me” left.
Which brings me to why I’m writing this letter to you today:
As a result of this unfolding in my life, my work is changing. I don’t know where it is going for sure, or for how long it will be this way, but I’m clear about what I need to do right now. I haven’t written an ezine or a blog post in two or more months. Instead I’m being guided away from writing toward staying connected with all of you in a more interactive, intimate way.
So… for a while, instead of providing my Soul Food electronic newsletter as my primary way of offering tips, tools, inspiration and information, I will be facilitating a Free LIVE Q&A Forum call twice a month. This tele-conference series is called:
Beyond the Law of Attraction: How to Let God Work Through You
HERE ARE THE DETAILS:
What will happen on the calls?
The calls will be up to 60 minutes in length. I will begin by delivering whatever inspired message seems to be coming through at the time. (There’s a lot of that happening these days.) And then I’ll open the lines up for Q&A. Anyone on the call can ask any questions they have about personal success, healing, transformation, manifestation, navigating the illusion that is our physical experience here on earth, the law of attraction, letting God work through you… things like that. My intention is and always will be to answer questions and support those that are called to be there in the highest way, as guided by Source.
Who Are These Calls For?
These Live Forums are for YOU, if…
What if I can’t make the times?
The calls will be recorded. Simply register by typing your name and primary email below. This will automatically place you on the email list which we’ll use to send you the recordings when they are available. There is no obligation of any kind associated with registering. You’ll simply be on the mailing list which will update you regarding the dates, times, telephone numbers and pass-codes you’ll need to get on the call.
The first call is scheduled for Thursday, June 24th at 1:00pm PACIFIC STANDARD TIME. A tentative call schedule for future dates will go out as soon as possible.
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Join us for… “BEYOND the Law of Attraction:
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How long will this series last? Will the audios be available later?
I have no idea. This is an entirely new way of working for me. I hope you’ll join me in this glorious adventure!
What if I have other questions?
Please click on the link below for the full scoop. If you have additional questions my admin team would be very happy to help you!
Email: CustomerCare@SuccessfortheSoul.com
Phone: 503-961-1228
I hope you’ll join me and the like-minded seekers that you are meant to connect with through this experience.
Beyond the Law of Attraction: How to Let God Work Through You
Choose YOUR Reality! TM
Sonia : )